“I’ve always known I’m different, so I’ve learnt to love myself for it, I’ve never been diagnosed with any mental illness but throughout my life my mental health has definitely been effected on more than one level: Death, Heartbreak, Stress, Anger, Injuries, Depression, Anxiety, Rejection, Health, Abuse, Self-Hate, Fear and overall feeling lost! Sometimes multiple at the same time. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀ ⠀
But I always dressed them up with a smile or being loud and boisterous. Using dance, martial arts, sex, creativity, socialising, work, all as an outlet but also at times barriers not to face anything head on. I remember a time I was going through a real tragedy in my life, I missed my train and went into a complete rage ready to destroy everything in my path. I laughed; I laughed so hard I cried it was definitely a moment of insanity. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
I realised I wasn’t angry at the train; it was the deeper feelings I was holding. As the train left and the platform was empty, I managed to let the train take my rage with it, it was like I let go of my baggage. I know it’s not that simple for everyone but it’s about seeing the feelings we hold onto as just obstacles if you don’t then they can control you.”